back then.

Wednesday, October 29, 2008

It's starting off like any other day. I am a sucker for routine. I made sure it was coffee- freeze dried, that started off the day. The same amount everyday. A three-two ratio (3:2) between coffee and sugar, just that the coffee was heaped and sugar, level. It's been the same everyday, ever since I acquired the taste for coffee, and caffeine being the drug it is, has incorporated itself without invitation into my everyday routine.

I am a sucker for routine (as I've said before) but I am more fond though of repeating myself, repeatedly. I(or rather my sub-conscious self) like to ensure that I repeat the things I say, repeating my points, repeating my jokes, repeating my everyday actions and even repeating my mistakes.

Repeating my mistakes.

Repeating my mistakes, that's probably the worst constituent of this quirk that I have. The rest are all just peculiar but this one, this gem here, has made me lose something really important to me. I am not sure if my habitual repeating is due to a short term memory or just plain stupidity but let's just say in this world we live in, it's very hard to get things in it's pure form. So yes, it's a combination of both.

Anyway, let's just leave that aside and get back to the reason why I am speaking about my day. This is because as the hands on the clock make a full seven hundred and twenty degree rotation, it would be the most exciting day I have ever lived. I am breaking out of routine. Getting out of the mould.

I am going to run away.

Okay. Maybe running away is too intense for two words to handle. I have never been really good at rephrasing but let's just say I am taking a break from the world. A break from the world that's been doing nothing nice but breaking my heart and me. I want to use this as an excuse to take my heart, like a pet on a walk. An extended walk. A really long walk, beyond national boundaries.

Yup, no need for a double take. I'm fleeing and the red, soft cover of a passport warrants enough evidence of my intentions. I never meant for it to happen now actually but it's just that I have let enough people down and if I do actually stick around, scores more would follow. So, never mind the utterly ridiculously important examinations which my right hand and left brain have been arduously preparing for. Expectations are not meant to be met.

I am severing all ties with the world. All my possessions are would be up for grabs. Just to side track a bit. Come over to get them if you're interested, just don't take my little blue box of letters and please do tell my parents what you're taking. Come only, after two or three weeks. By then they would have gotten over the initial shock and come to comprehend over my actions. It will save you all a great lot of trouble and from having to answer compromising questions. I think you would appreciate this more than I would. I do not want to trouble you, my friends.

This may sound like I’m inching closer to death but rest assured my friends, there would be no loss or taking of lives. So rest assured but do keep me in your prayers, amongst other important petitions.

I am committed to doing this. So committed I am to break out of routine that I have decided to travel in a clockwise manner (towards the west). With unreliable knowledge, I figured that the earth spun (tilted at 27.5 degrees) in an anti-clockwise manner. So yes, I decided that I might as well do the opposite.

After all, I am aiming to go against the world right?

5:49:00 PM

Monday, October 27, 2008

I am a slave to my books. Its pages dictate my life.

I need to study. Really hard. The crunch is here. My stomach churns every time I realise how important my 'A' Levels are. It is really, the whole embodiment of my academic journey. Plus, having me wasted a year already, this counts even more and "You better not screw up after all these years ah!" just rings in my head constantly. I must admit that I have backslide throughout these last two years at school, I entered being really fiery about my studies and I set myself high standards. I guess it was through my performance in the first few months that I managed to get to Cambridge. It's ironic because I think Cambridge broke my momentum but I don't want to blame anything or anybody, it really does boil down to me anyway. However, I'm feeling the drive coming back to me. Can't wait for it to be over, then it'll be the Canadian ski trip and flying to Indonesia in Singapore colours to compete (I'm currently placed 6th in the Under-21 category, in S.E.A Hooray!) before enlistment. Okay, I'm not looking forward to army life. How regimented and mundane; I'm infamous for always getting into trouble with authority.

Right now, I hate being unoccupied because having nothing to do only causes me to think. Although I don't think as intensely as the previous times, it's still there and it tightens the immediate peripheral area surrounding my heart and making it constricted.

My heart can't beat the way it wants to. I have found myself trying to make myself happy lately, finding various ways to amuse myself. I have not done this in awhile, I've realized. This is because I had a constant source of ever flowing happiness, like a well dug into an artesian aquifer. At least, the happiness is on a hiatus.

I'm relieved, but what worries me, is that I would lose it. Losing it would cause the sky to go bleak, for birds to lose their bearings, to fall out of my sky and on to the pavement to serve as reminders. Reminders of how flight can be taken away from them like how everything else could be taken away from us if we're careless. I mustn't be careless; I must not let my guard down. I have constantly said and even promised to become a better person, to rectify my faults.

I must admit, I have said this on a whim, while looking for a quick solution. That's me- always looking for the quick fix-it and not looking at the real root. This time, I want to be committed to change; I can't make her angry anymore. I have got to be sensitive towards how other people feel. This is ridiculous; it's like pulling stones from out of mid air and just tripping over them after they fall onto the ground. I am creating my own problem. I am ridiculous and all these nonsense has got to stop. I have to be patient, for time is of the essence. Every minute that passes by, I hope has a remedying effect. Please Lord, I hope this time is not wasted and that I think really very hard, about the person I want to be.

Oh no, I've said too much. Just needed the reprieve.

Labels: Education, Life, Love, Random Ruminations

3:59:00 PM

Friday, October 24, 2008

Emotions and moods.

These are the very spoilers that destroys a relationship.. It’s essentially either the mood of wanting to be left alone or just wishing at times, of having someone there to accompany you, to talk, or just having her lay her head on your shoulder for comfort.

Sometimes, I just want to be by myself. The selfish ol' guy with no concerns in the world; with just plain narcissism to boot instead. I call it freedom, people call it bachelorhood, mother-in-laws call it inability to initiate a marriage proposal. Haha..

But yet, there are occasions where I wish there was someone there beside me -someone close, to hug, caress or hold a hand. Affection and warmth. Just to be cuddly. Emotions are weird!

Anyway, i think i need to find an activity partner; we can do sports or any other form of crazy things with..!

Maybe even shopping..! Like go on a journey to hunt down all places of good buys! Shopping partner, anyone? I say amen to discounts and marked-down prices!

I NEED AN ACTIVITY BUDDY!!!

This is one of my favourite poems by William Shakespeare.
Justin's sidenote: Shakespeare is a fine example of how one man can immortalize himself. And cause immense suffering to Literature students hundreds of years after he's dead.

Sonnet 130

My mistress' eyes are nothing like the sun;
Coral is far more red than her lips' red;
If snow be white, why then her breasts are dun;
If hairs be wires, black wires grow on her head.
I have seen roses damask'd, red and white,
But no such roses see I in her cheeks;
And in some perfumes is there more delight
Than in the breath that from my mistress reeks.
I love to hear her speak, yet well I know
That music hath a far more pleasing sound;
I grant I never saw a goddess go;
My mistress, when she walks, treads on the ground:
And yet, by heaven, I think my love as rare
As any she belied with false compare.

Sassy eh? Teasing.
I've always like romantic poems, but this one just stuck with me.
It didn’t have the usual mushy stuff, but it pokes fun at his love. It's amazing how he can turn everything around with one verse though. It goes from funny to romantic in an instant.

Oh, I love it.

There's another of Shakespeare's sonnets that I love too. Strictly romantic, but that shall be kept to myself. Way too mushy. Reduces me to a gooey puddle.

I was going through my notebooks. Can you believe that I still have my notebooks dating all the way back to 2003?

Haha. The crap that I came up with man. Making up time lines when I was bored. Writing poems, short stories. It's entirely no surprise that my teachers were always reprimanding me for not paying attention in class.

Anyway, I was looking through my notebooks, and saw this phrase I wrote down in 2006. Don't remember who it came from, but it reflects on everything that I've done in life. And now at the crossroads of my life, this phrase comes back to haunt me.

Be great in act, as you have been in thought.

For such a short phrase, it packs a lot of power, don't you think?

Nonetheless, I will LEARN to love you, English Literature.

Labels: Emotions, Girls, Literature

4:47:00 PM

Saturday, October 18, 2008

"1..2..3..4..5!! Eh that piece of food dropped on the floor more than 5 seconds already, cannot eat..!"

I'm sure many have heard something like this before. Or maybe you are one of those preaching such a rule yourself, but perhaps changing it to the 7-second rule instead. 2 more seconds to grab that food bit; well done!

But is there any evident truth to it? (I've always thought its ridiculous)

In this present day and age you would probably just Google "food 5-second rule". That's what I did (my utmost gratitude to the nerds who invented the Internet!), and I shockingly discovered that it is apparently true. In a study, food picked up E.coli bacteria only after 5 seconds.

So I guess the 5 seconds rule actually holds true.

However, think about this for a moment.. if food picks up E.coli from a clean and disinfected floor, then why not our plates and tables? And why not every other freaking surface on this planet? Why not from the atmosphere too while I'm at it? Have you just realized how redundant this rule is?

My advice to you is this, if you really want to eat something off the floor, just do it because you won't die from it and you'll satisfy your warped craving. While you're worrying about the E.coli on the floor, the E.coli on your plate is rolling all over your food.

If you are really afraid of 5 more seconds of E.coli, you might as well stop eating. Then you'd die looking like Lindsay Lohan.. and that's a lot worse than food poisoning.

Since I'm onto food here, let me recount this experience I had while I was eating out. So I was eating at this restaurant recently and while I got my food fast, my friend was left waiting till I was almost done with my whole set meal before his was served.

One of the things I absolutely hate is waiting hours for my food, I like it pronto. And for the record, I’ve been losing my appetite and eating A LOT slower (which is totally unacceptable) these days. So anyway, when his food finally came, I remarked to him that I was lucky not to have ordered his item because it took so damn long...

Guess what?

For no apparent reason whatsoever, the eavesdropping waitress serving the food turned to give me a very dirty look, akin to one where I’ve just called her a "nasty bitch with smelly unshaven armpits"..

Naturally I wasn't very happy that someone had taken offence with my casual remark and given me such a look. In the first place, there was nothing wrong with my remark (not as if I commented out loud that the waitress had hairy armpits. I don't go sniffing or looking up people’s sleeves), because the food was truly slow to come!

And! Since we’re on the subject of E.coli.. my friend's food probably picked up like 20 more minutes of the bacteria during the wait! That's 240 times more than the acceptable limit! We should be filing a bloody law suit for goodness sake! Bitchy waitress aside, we passed by an ice-cream store after, displaying this huge sign proclaiming their desserts to be "94% fat-free!". My friend then remarked that it probably only means that the last 6% is pure fat. So true.

Well, I honestly don't care much about carbs or the need to diet, watch what I eat, etc. because (un)fortunately, I'm one of those born to endorse slimming centres. In other words, no matter how much I eat or want to, i’ll never seem to grow fat..

That said.. bring on the E.coli anytime!

Labels: Random Ruminations, Service staff

6:11:00 PM

Wednesday, October 15, 2008

So I’ve received feedback from some regarding the way I look. But that’s really alright because I’ve taken no offence to those criticisms. In the same way I’m always checking out and “analyzing” people, you have the right to make your own judgments.

No one was ever born perfect. Secretly, we all wish we were taller, slimmer, and prettier, had bigger eyes, had straighter teeth, etc. We look up to those models splashed across advertisements and compare ourselves with them, making us feel inwardly inadequate and ashamed of the way we look.

Blame the media for setting the stereotypical benchmark. We now define all outward and superficial aspects as a mark of beauty. Have you ever wondered how we’d actually perceive beauty if the media chose to instead glamorize average looking people?

It’s a blessing to be beautiful. Good looking people always enjoy the perks in life. It’s a fact. Often, they are the most popular, one every other person would love to date and they somehow never fail to have things their way.

I’ll give you an illustration..

Let’s say you were text messaging and some idiot bumps into you resulting in your phone crashing onto the pavement. Instinctively, you’d want to swear and demand some form of compensation. If that person was average looking or ugly, you’d certainly let fly your fury.

But what if that same idiot was the hottest looking hunk or babe you’ve ever met in your life? You’d obviously go all jelly and tell him/her that its alright even though your phone has clearly been smashed to bits.

Now I’m not trying to condemn good looking people. Thing is, we’re all meant to be different. Some are born good looking, wealthy, intelligent, while majority of us are just “normal”. I admit to being normal. But the difference between me and you (those who criticize me) is the fact that I'm happy being who I am.

So what if I don’t have the best of looks? I am just grateful for the fact that I wasn’t born deformed, that I have a healthy functioning body. I don’t need good looks to go on living, and I certainly don’t need them to please anyone.

There is a cliché that true beauty lies within.

A cliché which I’ve discovered to be true. There are some people who might not exactly grab your attention with the way they look at first glance, but somehow attract you with their personality and through the course of knowing them, you discover their true beauty that is, who they are.

On the other end of the spectrum, there are individuals I know who simply are drop dead gorgeous, but have an attitude that stinks. Let’s just say they know of their empowerment and abuse it by manipulating those who are blindly captivated by their good looks. But hey, there are obviously the genuinely nice ones as well..

My point is, looks are superficial which will eventually die over time. It is who you are as a person that defines your true beauty. Although I still judge people based on first impressions, I’ve now learnt to find the good in them and accept them for who they are..

Everyone is special in their own unique ways. It is our imperfection that makes us different. Just think, if we were all flawless, we’d be nothing more than a bunch of manufactured clones, there’d be nothing to define us.

To me, a stunningly beautiful person is one who glows with optimism and confidence, who is secure with him or herself and is content with their life, finding happiness where it is, and not looking where it cannot be found. Simply put, beauty is not just in the face, but a light in the heart..

I've got a little question for you..
What to you defines true beauty?
What makes you feel beautiful?

Do share your thoughts

Labels: Beauty

10:23:00 PM

Monday, October 13, 2008

Morning bus rides to school can annoy you to no end. Sometimes you'd just be overwhelmed with this incredible urge to kill some inconsiderate assholes. But I chuckled at a new random thought as I watched commuters grinding against each other on the packed bus this morning..

Taking a morning bus is almost like going to a club party.

Everyone forms a long line outside the doors wanting to get into the “club" while a mosh pit goes on inside with Ah Ma(s) grinding young boys and what not. The "bouncers" though, aren’t the ones standing at the door..

They're the bloody assholes standing inside the bus refusing to move to the rear which inevitably limits the number of commuters that can get on at subsequent stops. I swear, if I had a gun, I’ll really shoot those people!

It's like, there you are at the bus stop looking at time tick away and the possibility of you being late for school if the bus doesn’t turn up in the next few minutes. Then from the distance, you spot that good old' familiar vehicle turning round the corner and you scream "hallelujah!"..

But the bus drives on and as it passes, you notice that while people at the front are so squashed against the front door, the rear of the bus has ALOT of standing space. Why? Blame the bloody "bouncer(s)", they're doing a damn good job..

In contradiction, if you're already in the bus, you'd want to kiss these bouncers because they are the ones who ensure the bus never stops but zooms pass every other stop.

Anyway, lets go back into the club.. By that I mean the bus of course. Its like a mosh pit in there and I shall practice censorship by not detailing the things that goes on in a morning bus. Hmm anyway, in all club parties, the star attraction is usually the deejay spinning the night's music..

In the bus, that superstar deejay is the bus captain. In clubs, people will start cheering and dancing when the DJ spins a hit song.. on the bus, everyone will silently cheer and start moving when the bus captain stands up and screams "PLEASE MOVE TO THE REAR!"..

Then, the fun and party finally ends when the bus reaches the stop where majority of commuters alight. But hey, there's always the next morning… every morning.

For the most happening party for people of all ages, races, genders.. Hop on to your next morning bus turning round the corner!

Labels: Public Transport

10:45:00 PM

Thursday, October 09, 2008

Have you ever wondered why some people are always permanently away, busy, or never online on MSN? Have you also realised that sometimes, the status on one's MSN is no longer indicative of whether the person will chat with you?

After doing some research, (aka spending hours online not doing anything very productive) I have decoded the complex meaning of what MSN statuses really mean..

Online
I'm in a friendly mood now.

It means the person will probably chat with anybody, including people they don't like. However, when such people approach the subject, he/she will suddenly become "busy" or "away", or will "be right back". In extreme cases, the subject will "appear offline", and then continue chatting with those they want to chat with. This status has no filtering effect, so prepare to be chatted up by random idiots.

Busy
I am currently busy with an assignment, work or project meeting of some kind. However, only people who know me well enough will know that even if I'm busy I will still chat with you.

Hence this keeps out those random idiots. Alternatively, one could genuinely be busy. But if you really are busy, you wouldn't even be on MSN. So are you really busy? Hmmm..

Be Right Back
I need to do something and I will be back soon.

However, soon ranges from a few seconds to infinity, with infinity probably meaning "see you in school tomorrow!". Personally I find this one of the most irritating status, because the people with this status usually forgets to indicate that they are back. So it becomes "I'll be right back but you won't know when that is so bye!"..

Away
I am currently not at my computer.

Used most by serial downloaders who are online 24/7. This is also a stronger filter than "busy". Because unlike "busy", one can actually claim that he/she wasn't at the computer when some swaku tries to chat him/her up. For busy you may not be able to, because you were there but merely busy. You actually have to put some filler text like"sorry I'm busy now can't talk"..

Out to lunch
More or less a redundant status.

If you were really out to lunch, you could simply use "away", "appear offline" or just sign out. People only display this when they want to be away and yet different from others. Note: It looks like away but its"out to lunch". Now that's something extra indeed..

Appear offline

The best status in the world, and my personal favorite because it is so useful. This is used by people who checks who is online before deciding what status to give themselves when they come online. Secondly, it is used as a filter of all system. People can't talk to you, but you can talk to people. It totally eliminates any chances of stalkers, weirdos, and other random idiots talking to you.

By the way, I'm always OFFLINE on MSN more so because I'm probably only online for a couple of minutes at each time anyway.. so I figured its really pointless appearing online, start talking to friends then having to say "I've gotta go" after a few lines exchanged..

Decoding MSN statuses is an art.
Do it well and you'll always have (no) friends to talk to online!

Anyway here's something amusing I found on the Internet today:

DoTA Prayer: (Pray after every game)
Dear GODLIKE,
Thank you for OWNING me another day
May all the WICKED sick be healed by your DOMINATING touch
May your PERSEVERENCE be present
MORNING TAVERN until DAWN TAVERN
May you increase our CRITICAL to LUCIFER
and damage his armor with your DIVINE RAPIER
We are sorry if we BACKSTAB you
Send your GUARDIAN ANGEL to save us
May you continue to bring us UNSTOPPABLE blessings
and fill our hearts with TARRASQUE
Look beyond it as blasphemous; but through a light hearted perspective instead.
KUDOS.

Labels: Technology

7:54:00 PM

Tuesday, October 07, 2008

Friends drift apart all the time. Groups of friends you might have known from childhood, secondary school, college or universities will dwindle over time, for varied reasons. You could be the “best of friends”, sharing personal secrets and hanging out almost everyday but become complete strangers the very next moment..

People change, situations occur.

Sometimes, some friendships are really not meant to last. I personally don’t believe in the whole “best friends forever” nonsense. It’s a childish fantasy which one will only look back on with regret when things don’t work out..

I don’t believe in ever doing a kiss-and-tell either. Even though friendships may not always have a happy ending (due to a multitude of reasons), their past values should never be negated.

Occurrences may happen during the course of friendship and people might eventually drift apart, but the secrets and memories shared should always remain special. It's stupid to deny the value of a friendship just because it ends. More importantly, one should never torch or rudely disrespect another just because they no longer fit into your current life.

Friendship is really just one of those indefinable words that mean different things to different people at different times. Most friendships are transient, they come and go with time and place..

But to a large extent, we are a sum total of all our friendships, past and present, mixed together with our own peculiar personality. Every single person we’ve met along the way, no matter how long we’ve known them or how much we’ve shared during those times, have definitely made us who we are today in little ways we might not even have realized ourselves..

A day will come though, where you find yourself less than eager to find time for that friend or even your other half (if you’re in a relationship). When you ever feel that way, it’s an indication of what is about to end..

A very simple explanation is this.. people change, priorities change, age changes, we ourselves change. All plays have an ending, some plays are short, some are a bit longer, but every one of them has to let the curtains fall eventually..

We meet new people everyday. Acquaintances may turn into friends, friends may turn into strangers. But all these people are there for a reason.. they give meaning and often leave an impact at various stages of our lives..

Friendships may not always last forever.
But it’s these memories that do.

Labels: Friends

10:15:00 PM

Monday, October 06, 2008

Here's the second installment to the 20-QUESTIONS POST!

#12: Do you have a crush on one of your current schoolmate?

I don’t know. I really don’t. It’s a - I have a bit of feelings for her yet not to an extent of having a crush sort of feeling. A crush is when somehow I just know I really like someone.

#13: Would you ever go out on a date with a girl who asks you out?

I’ll definitely agree to go out if she’s someone I know. But I’ll only ever consider it a date when and if I have feelings for the girl I’m going out with. Otherwise, it’s just hanging out and spending time with a friend.

#14: Do you think that love can exist without selfishness, jealousy, fights, quarrels, and most importantly, sex?
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#15: Can everyone co-exist with everyone else peacefully? Is it really that easy to get along with somebody?

I really believe that love can exist without sex. Sex is just a process of reproduction. Sex is just an act of lust. As for selfishness, jealousy, fights and quarrels, a couple’s relationship will only grow stronger when they go through such times together and better learn about one another. Love is about accepting someone despite their flaws and always wanting the best for him/her. So sometimes, that results in quarrels. Fights may not always be a bad thing.
It’s not easy to get along with anyone. Some people are just assholes no matter how hard you try to work your differences out. So no, it’s quite impossible for everyone to co-exist peacefully. We can only hope that the leaders of whichever country aren’t assholes themselves. Getting along with anyone takes effort. Always try to look at their strengths rather than their weaknesses and learn to appreciate them for who they are. If they insist or ever start bitching about you, let them be. You don’t have to degrade yourself to their level. You can never please the whole world, don’t try.

#16: What about a girl turns you off/on and why?

A turn off..

1) Any girl who swears or has frequent bitch fits
2) Always doing or saying things just to attract attention
3) Thinks she knows every damn thing
4) Flirts with people just to get her way
5) Talks or writes in the cutesy twits lingo
6) Girls who always do the whole reverse psychology and gets pissed off when they don’t get the response they were hoping for (i.e "I think im fat.. am I?". If you think you're fat, you are! Don’t ask!).
7) Girls who tries too hard be sexy when they really shouldn’t cross the line of decency
8) Speaks with a really fake wannabe-ish accent
9) When she's drunk
10) Airheads.

A turn on..

1) Exudes confidence but not arrogance
2) Articulate and eloquent
3) Has her own special dress sense/style
4) Has that bit of demure nature about her?
5) When she smiles (then again, its subjective)
6) Intellectual, tactful, sweet
7) Plays hard to get (but it’s not cool when it’s overdone or when she's just misleading the poor dude)
8) A girl one can have a meaningful conversation with
9) Independent, yet somewhat vulnerable and innocent
10) If she meets at least 7 out of the 10 things I defined that makes a girl hot

#17: Who do you think (of the current people you know) best fits the bill of your ideal girlfriend?

Shannon and Tze Tsian. Actually, it's more like Shannon as the ideal girlfriend and Tze Tsian as the ideal future wife. Haha! But i'm not ready or interested in getting attached at the moment.

#18: Name 5 things you'd like to change about yourself.

1) I wish I was built bigger. I've always wanted to be at least 75kg. (Which works out to be an impossible 14kg more to pile on, baby!)
2) I wish I was born naturally smart. The don’t-really-study-yet-ace-papers sort.
3) I wish I'd not be so critically judgmental all the time.
4) I wish I had some dress sense.
5) I'd want to be a better Christian, one who is more connected with God.

#19: What are the qualities you look for in friendships?
I've often talked about friendship in previous entries and I will continue to in future ones. So I'll just tell you what to me, is the most important quality in friendships.. trust.

#20: Do you believe in love at first sight?
I don’t. You may be attracted to a person’s image, but you can never call it love. Everyone shouldn’t use the word “love” so loosely.

#21: Would you rather a flat or voluptuous girlfriend?
I personally find this question redundant. But if you must know, I honestly don’t care. I like athletic girls and they usually aren't very well endowed. So, it doesn't matter.

#22: What to you is your ideal marriage lifestyle?
Ideal marriage would be one where my wife and I will always be completely honest, trust and love each other unconditionally comewhatmay. In terms of lifestyle, it would be a lifetime of joy and happiness doing things with the family. Having a boy and a girl would be perfect.

Labels: Me

6:07:00 PM

Wednesday, October 01, 2008

It’s so unfair that many chose to sign off anonymously… But okay due to the constant stream of questions, I’ll answer not just the first 20, but every single one that’s posted before I actually start replying them. Anything goes. But this is going to be the first and last time I’ll ever do something as crazy as a public confession.

I'm going to start answering all the questions some of you have asked. This feels like some sort of interview man. But I must admit there are a couple that actually got me thinking (and laughing out loud even); so much so that I wont reply all 20 at a go, probably a few at a time as I ponder on some of those thought provoking questions. You still can continue to ask if you want to though.

#1: What are the physical appearances of a girl that attracts you?

What are the physical attributes that attracts me to a girl? Hmm firstly, I’d like to make it clear that I’m not going to try being politically correct on this one. I’m just giving my straight up answer to what I think defines a girl’s hotness based solely on outward appearances.

1) Someone with long hair. Admittedly, girls with shoulder-length hair or longer tend to catch my attention. I think a girl should always keep her hair long simply because it portrays a feminine look.

2) Captivating eyes. Anyone without glasses always looks better, but I find any girl who puts on colored contacts, a HUGE turn off. It’s so ah-lian like. A girl who’s eyes sort of naturally lights up is hot.

3) Smile. Some girls just have that killer smile which gets me all smitten. It’s the really sweet yet innocent kind of smile. Not the come-and-get-me sort.

4) Athletic physique. Or it simply means, a tone, worked-out body. To me, legs are one of the sexiest parts of a girl’s body. Did I mention I like girls with abs too?

5) Sports a little tan. Between a fair skinned and a tanned girl, the latter wins hands down. But not the chao-ta dark, just a little bit of tan from the sun. I hate girls who whine about the sun.

6) Tall. She has to be at least 1.65m?

7) Flawless complexion. I guess that alone explains it.

8) Well trimmed nails. Strangely, I find girls with long finger nails quite disgusting? For me, a girl who doesn’t trim her nails neatly automatically plummets down the hot factor scale. Nail polish too, gosh. Some colors freak me out.

9) Accent. Any girl who speaks with a hint of genuine British or American accent is damn sexy! But not when it’s overdone or when she fakes an accent. Radio/on-stage voice and an everyday conversation accent are two different things all together.

10) Face. She has to be pretty; duh. For definition of pretty, ask any other guy.

#2: What do you usually think about when you're alone and it's quiet and it's dark?

I think about the day that has passed, I think about life ahead, I think about the people around me. Sometimes in solitude, depressing thoughts do weigh me down but then again there are many times I remember the moments and people that made me smile and I’d just feel grateful.

#3: Do you agree with this.. guys like to look and talk about hot girls but actually, they're most likely to fall for ordinary average looking girls.

I don’t agree with the way the question is phrased. It makes guys seem incapable and it makes those average looking girls seem like a mere second best. Guys and girls both check out hot people all the time. I reckon the only reason why hot people exist is to be looked at. What makes people fall in love though, are the qualities inside.. that’s where true beauty lies, looks don’t last forever.

#4: What are the qualities you look for in people; the 'otherwise i can't get along with you' kinda qualities.

I’ll give you one.. being real. I don’t think I can get along with anyone who puts on a facade their whole life. Given that you might feel inferior or inadequate sometimes but I personally respect a person who recognizes and admits their flaws (yet wants to be better) a lot more than one who fakes being someone else they’re not.

#5: Would you like to be buried or cremated?

Haha what a random question.. but when I'm dead, it matters little what happens to my body. What matters most is where I’ll end up spiritually.

#6: Have you had more hits or misses in life?

You know the weird thing about the misses in life, is that it always somehow leads to something better. I’ve missed out on a whole lot of opportunities and I’ve failed many times in my life. But everything happens for a reason. Not doing a particular thing or failing to achieve that something actually opens many other doors of opportunities and realization. I guess at the end of the day, it’s really about treating everything as a learning journey and finding joy in doing whatever it is you’re doing. With regards to the question, I can’t give a definite gauge, but many misses have turned into hits and has made me who I am today.

#7: List 2 guys you would fall in love with in your school and why?

The structure of the question implies the notion or possibility of me admitting to being gay if such is the case right? Haha good trick question. But no, I will never ever in my life, fall in love with a guy.

#8: Why do you always need some time out alone and not share your problems with friends?

I was born a thinker and I pretty much grew up an independent loner most parts of my early years. So even though I know that my friends are always there for me, many times I just need to sort out my thoughts and emotions on my own. More often than not, I’ll come out all better again after some soul searching. My closest friends understands me best and never do they probe when they know I’m not emotionally well, they’re just always there no matter what and I do tell them my problems eventually. I just need alone time every once in a while to reflect. Everyone does.

#9: Introduce your family?

I have a father, mother, and two younger siblings (sister and brother). I choose not to write about them because too many random people read my blog and I want to protect the privacy of my family. The one thing that will really ever piss me off is when someone starts insulting my family. I don’t want to risk letting that happen.

#10: What did you have for dinner exactly 2 weeks ago from today?

I do not usually make it a point to remember trivialities. My daily diet intake is varied. Besides, the only time I watch what I eat is the period before my races.

#11: What good qualities do you think your friends see in you?
Hmm.. this is something I’d actually like to know myself. I’ll repost this question on a separate post one day. But regardless of the good or not so good qualities, I know that my friends still accept me for who I am.

And there you have it! SOME burning questions answered...

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