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Sunday, April 26, 2009

Finding The Better Part of Me.

If there was 1 thing you could change about me..
..one thing that might make me a better person

What would it be?

I WANT TO DO SOMETHING CRAZY. I want to do something utterly insane, irresponsible, and unexpected. I want to burst out on the streets like light exploding into seven colors. I want to be a kaleidoscope, ever-changing and unpredictable. I want to scream and shout and sing at the top of my voice. I want to be friends with the whole wide world. I want to cartwheel to get around. I want to run around and hug random objects. I want the freedom to be me.

I seek the security and comfort that I imagine will balance me out, complementing the 19 year old boy I am and giving me the energy and motivation to push myself harder and become a better me. I don't think it's too much to hope for... I just don't want any lies, I don't want conditions and I don't want the hurt. I just want to know that something that good exists and will come my way in due time - hopefully sometime soon. I want to learn that the stories are real and that happiness can last. Just let me come home.

"I am not afraid to keep on living
I am not afraid to walk this world alone
Honey if you stay I'll be forgiving
Nothing you can say could stop me going home."
- Famous Last Words (My Chemical Romance)

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