back then.

Sunday, August 03, 2008

Why does life have to be so complex? Why do people have to be so superficial? Whatever happened to our days of sweet innocence as little kids not caring about anything else beyond our ideal world of imaginations?

Life was never meant to be complicated, somehow it's just us humans who complicate it, making something so simple so hard to comprehend. We lose all our innocence and trust through our growing years as our minds become more twisted, as we live through the harsh realities of the world.

Sometimes, I really wish I was just a child again.

I miss the days of innocence, the days where we were so naive.. We trusted, believed and shared so easily. The memories of those endless hours of fun and trouble, screaming in excitement at the top of our lungs with friends we'd instantly make at the playground..

How the simple promise of an ice cream would make anything bad seem alright again. Those times when tears would fall easily but be forgotten just as quickly. Those giggles and laughter we shared with our little friends over a silly joke.

Life was so simple, so pure.

But the inevitable happened, we eventually grew up. We became exposed to a world of betrayal, hate, lust, violence, greed, selfishness. We soon begin to realize that the fantasy world we were living in isnt as perfect as the one we grew up thinking it was.

Whatever happened to our picture perfect image of the world? Whatever happened to innocent and genuine love and care? Why is it now so hard to give a friend a hug or smile?

Those dreams and ambitions I had, they changed every year but they always seemed plausible. Now, even the simplest ideals seem so faraway and unreachable.

Isn't it strange how we wanted desperately as a child, to grow up and live our life in the world of grown ups as soon as possible but now lament and reminisce on those days of young, wanting to relive such times?

The world we live in slowly but surely killed the child in us. We've lost our purity and simplicity. We are now critical and judgmental about the people and things around us. We have experienced a roller coaster of emotions that has shaped us the way we are today.

Sometimes, I wish I was a child again; innocently naive, trusting people around, always embracing and accepting them for who they are with a bright smiling face (vice versa) and developing joyous memories with them.

Not caring about anything else and believing that the world is perfect.

5:18:00 PM